Yup. That picture sums up just about how I’m feeling inside. I honestly can’t remember the last time that I have felt this stressed out. I can’t give out details but it revolves around our business. Being a small business owner can be good and bad. Lately, it’s been very challenging.
With all the stress and anxiety lately, I hate to admit it but, I’ve been pretty short with a lot of people. Not very Christ like at all.
Right when I think that I’m lost, Jesus has to remind me that He has been there the whole time and that even though I’m going through some tough times in my life, He will be with me. I met with my fellow diaconate brothers yesterday afternoon to practice the Liturgy of Hours that we will be doing at our next meeting in February. (The men are grouped into groups of 3 men based on their location and each group of men lead the Liturgy of the Hours every weekend we meet) If you are not familiar with the Litany of the Hours, there is a short reading in the prayer. We are to come up with a 3 minute reflection based on the reading and we are to share that reflection (kind of like a short homily) with the whole group. I told the men that I hadn’t read mine yet. I saw it and noticed that it was a lot bigger than normal. It kind of freaked me out because it wasn’t as short as the usual ones. I went ahead and read it yesterday and was blown away. I’d like to share it with you now.
Contribute to the needs of the saints, practice hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly; never be conceited. Repay no one evil for evil, but take thought for what is noble in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends upon you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” No, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
Jesus has always walked with me, I just forget at times. As soon as I finished reading that verse from scripture, I looked up at the crucifix in the Church and said, “Thank you.” No matter how many times I feel like I’m being persecuted or being taken advantage of, I shall look to Christ for the answer and remember to treat others with respect and dignity.
Pray for me brothers and sisters that I may get through this rough time in my life and know that I too will be praying for you. Viva Cristo Rey!