Happiness. For some, it comes easy but for others, it is a challenge. What is it that makes you happy? Since my return to the Catholic Church, I have found an abundance of things that make me happy. I look at my marriage through different lenses now and have a much greater appreciation for the sacramental beauty of it. I look at my bride am awestruck by her presence. Her beauty inside and out, is beyond what mere words could describe. I look at my now young adult children and I am filled with joy to have them in my life. I look at our two little dogs who make me laugh and smile. I look at my mom and I feel blessed that she is still here. I find happiness in the forest when the wind blows and I can smell the pines. I have many things in my life to be happy about but the biggest, most important thing that makes me happy is my relationship with Christ.


For the longest time, I felt as if I had no purpose in life. I felt as though I was lost. But through the grace of God I figured out that “not all those who wander are lost” as J.R.R. Tolkien said. I was wandering around looking for happiness in various things not knowing that the happiness that I had been struggling to find was there all along, in Christ, but I needed to learn that for myself.


Far too many people look for happiness in other things like food, shopping, alcohol, sex, smoking, money, etc… In the end, these will only bring a brief moment of satisfaction but will never bring you true happiness that can be attained through Christ. Psalm 37:4 – Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.  When we do things, we should be doing them for the greater glory of God as St. Ignatius would say. Let us go out then and show the world the happiness that we have through Christ Our Lord and share that happiness with everyone we meet. God bless.

A Message for My Dad

As I finished up my first weekend in the Aspiancy Diaconate program, I couldn’t help but wonder what my dad would say if he were here. My dad had faults, like we all do, but he was a good man at heart, a very giving man, especially to the poor and to those in need of a loaf of bread or whatever he could give. My dad was a bread man. He worked for Rainbo Bread Company for over 20 years. During that time I had my struggles with him in my early years however, I always noticed how he never turned away anyone who was in need of bread or whatever he could give them. Like I said, he was a very giving man and he always thanked God for what he had.

He was born in the small town of Carencro, Louisiana. He came from a simple and poor family with strong Roman Catholic roots as did most Cajun families back then. He was heavily involved in his Church serving as an alter boy and also helping his priest around the house. Later on, as with most Catholic men, he became more of a man of the world. As we, his children, started to grow older, I noticed him going back to Church here and there and as he grew older, he started attending daily mass like he did back in his childhood. He would always tell me, “Mijo (son – in Spanish) you should go to Church and thank God for all you have. You own a successful business, you have a beautiful wife and three beautiful children, thank God for all that he has given you.” I had not yet come back to the Church and would reply with my typical “yeah dad, I know” but I never did. It wasn’t like in my teenage years or my early twenties when he would get mad at me for not going to Church, instead, he planted the seed and allowed God to do the rest.

My dad passed away on January 18th, 2012. I came back fully to the Catholic faith in November of that same year. There were many people who played a vital role in my return to the Church and my dad was one of them. In his later years he was a great example of a Catholic man because he was Catholic and Christian by actions, not just by name. I’ve had many other examples in my life like him as well, the biggest one being my bride. My dad was always proud of me for the things that I’ve accomplished in my life but I know he would have been extremely proud to see me return to the faith like I finally did.

 Dad, if you are listening, and I know you are,  I’m sorry for being such a knucklehead and not listening to you with my ears when you tried to encourage me to turn to God. I’m glad to say that even though my ears never heard you, my heart did and I hope that I am making you proud now. I love you.

A New Journey Begins


On Monday evening of this week, I received an email letting me know that I’ve been recommended to continue as an Aspirancy in the Diaconate. I am experiencing so many emotions but most of all, I am happy and honored that God would consider choosing a fool, a sinner like me for this process but as the saying goes, and I believe it wholeheartedly, “Jesus, I trust in you.”


So now, a new journey begins. A journey into becoming a Permanent Deacon. I realize that I am very rough around the edges and that at times I can be more terse than I like however, Jesus has the sandpaper or more like a grinder lol to smooth out those rough edges of mine and through his grace, I continue to work towards becoming a better Christian, a better follower and example of Christ. As I continue my walk with him day by day, I pray that He will continue to send the Holy Spirit down upon me to guide me in every direction of this discernment process. I ask that you please pray for my bride as well because she is going through the process with me and is a big part of my becoming a Deacon God willing.

Thank you for your prayers and know that I’ll be praying for you as well. Let the journey begin!


Modern Day Sadducees and Pharisees

Before I get started, I want to give a disclaimer. The contents below are strictly my opinion on what I see as the Catholic world today in regards to social media and its role in the Church. With that being said, let’s proceed.
Social media sites have provided a platform for the new age of Sadducees & Pharisees in the Catholic Church and yet, nobody seems to recognize it. There are just as many supposed “Catholic” sites and pages as there are Protestant churches! The sad part of it all is that each one claims to be preaching Roman Catholicism yet, most of them disagree with each others view or version of it. There are many problems out there with all these people and sites claiming to be leading people to Jesus. Here are the main ones that I see.
The “Lay” problem.

Any Joe Blow can create a site or page and label it “Catholic.” I ought to know because I’ve had a few myself. As a matter of fact, since Vatican II, the laity have been encouraged to go out and participate more in their faith. The Church defines “laity” as: Laity—“all the faithful except those in Holy Orders and those who belong to a religious state approved by the Church. That is, the faithful, who by Baptism are incorporated into Christ and integrated into the People of God, are made sharers in their particular way in the priestly, prophetic, and kingly office of Christ, and have their own part to play in the mission of the whole Christian people in the Church and in the World.” The laypeople are encouraged to go out and spread the Gospel yet few are mature enough in their Catholic faith to be able to do so. “There is so much need today for mature Catholic personalities, conscious of their baptismal identity, of their vocation and mission in the Church and in the world!” – Pope St. John Paul II, May 30, 1998 Message for the World Congress of Ecclesial Movements and New Communities. Most “mature Catholics” that I have met or have seen their works are converts to the faith. That is not a bad thing but a great thing as it should encourage those who are “cradle Catholics” or reverts, to grasp for a better understanding of the Catholic faith. The Catechism of the Catholic Church is a good start. Probably the best way to learn more about Jesus is to pick up the bible and read about his life but don’t just “read” the bible, let it speak to your heart. Pray before you start to read and pray after. 
The “Ordained” problem.

Just as any Joe Blow layperson can create a site or page and call it Catholic, so can our ordained leaders of the Church. I’ve seen a whole slew of ordained clergy who have such different interpretations of the Catholic faith that it’s enough to make your head spin. Many tend to share their personal beliefs, some which go against Church teachings and the Magesterium or, that don’t do a good job in sharing or living the Gospel in a charitable manner. They have the tools to teach from (bible, CCC, religious formation, etc…) but they tend to shoot from the hip. Is it any wonder why most Protestants tend to see the Catholic Church as a bunch of hypocrites who don’t know their faith. How are we expected to know our faith when we are dependent on our leaders? Just as there are great examples of laypeople in the Church, there are just as many great examples of ordained clergy as well.
What now?

Everybody thinks that they know how to run the Church and what Jesus wants but, do they really know? When we depend on man to lead us to Christ, man will always fail us, for we are humans. God however, will never fail us. Let us all start listening to what it is Christ is calling us to do and stop focusing on becoming the next Scott Hahn or Bishop Barron. We can choose to do His will and go out and live and profess the Gospel or we can continue to do our will and continue to mislead others and misrepresent our beautiful Catholic Faith. 
Note: Since writing this piece I have decided to eliminate anything Catholic related on Facebook which is the social media site that is use most. I have done so to eliminate the noise and focus more on my own personal relationship with Christ instead of reading about “how” I should be doing it. I hope to someday bring back some of the sites that will be beneficial in my walk with Christ but for now, I will depend on the Holy Spirit to guide me. God bless and safe journeys.